Spent yesterday sewing. Got all of the chiffon pieces for the finale dress cut out and sewed up the top. The top went well. At 8, Heather and I went to the Well. I warned her beforehand that I have zero control over my emotions, which is extremely true these days. Sure enough, I lost it two songs in. I managed to get it back together and make it through the rest of the Well, but lost it again in the closing song. I don't know what it is about church songs that get me, but I had a near panic attack at the Christmas service back home. As I'm singing I just get these flashes of Marika and remember that I can't go visit her anymore and I just lose it.
Of course, I seem to just lose it at any point these days. It's really frustrating.
Today was my last first day of school. I had MKT300 at 9:30 with Erin. Jeremy Shelley is in my class, along with a few other players I couldn't identify. haha oops. It's cool, though. It should be an alright class. Then I worked 11-5. It wasn't bad. Graded lots of applications, did lots of budget work. Thennn I walked across the quad in the suddenly frigid air and came home. Watched Chopped, decided to do some sewing. TERRIBLE idea. Suddenly I hate everything. I mean everything. Nothing looks like me, nothing looks good even. SO I cried a little, called my mom, and decided to hang it up for the night and try again tomorrow. Oy, life. Kicking me in the face again.
SO tomorrow I will sew all day, then go to the gymnastics meet, which should be fun. Then I have lots of plans for the weekend, so I'm excited about that.
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